I know. This is the fourth birthday after I killed myself and it still doesn't feel real.
[Tim asked him about his birthday, once. He didn't ask again after Connor went quiet, horrorstricken at the idea of time passing. When you live your entire life wanting to die, the idea of living another year seems arduous. That was back when he didn't have his shit together, when he hadn't yet summoned up a desire to live. Just the sickening realization that he couldn't die. The Storyteller would just keep bringing him back again and again and again.]
I think it's time to wake up, Dirk.
[The gentle suggestion is paired with the music in the bar abruptly changing.]
cw: it's casual suicide mentions time
[Tim asked him about his birthday, once. He didn't ask again after Connor went quiet, horrorstricken at the idea of time passing. When you live your entire life wanting to die, the idea of living another year seems arduous. That was back when he didn't have his shit together, when he hadn't yet summoned up a desire to live. Just the sickening realization that he couldn't die. The Storyteller would just keep bringing him back again and again and again.]
I think it's time to wake up, Dirk.
[The gentle suggestion is paired with the music in the bar abruptly changing.]