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and it seemed like it never quite came back on
CONNOR
AGE: 19
DOB: June 30th
GENDER: Male
BIRTHPLACE: Philadelphia
FAMILY
MOTHER: Cynthia Murphy
FATHER: Larry Murphy
SISTER: Zoe Murphy
OOC
PB: Mike Faist
CANON: Dear Evan Hansen
CANONPOINT: After death
CURRENTLY IN: LifeAftr
Worn military surplus jacket. Chipped black nail polish. Long, unkept hair. The impression one might get of Connor Murphy is that of a loner who shouldn't be messed with and it's true, to a certain extent. He can be rude, prone to paranoia, and occasionally violent, but it's at least partially a defense mechanism. Rather than allow people to let him down, Connor continually attempts to push them away.
Suffering from canonical depression, I play him with Bipolar II Disorder. He suffers from major depressive episodes and occasional hypomanic ones but never manages to reach mania. This also causes his suicidal tendencies. Additionally, he has some form of anxiety like Evan, although Connor suffers from panic attacks ("freaking out," as he calls it) rather than Evan's intense social anxiety.
For all that Connor wants to be a better person, life has taught him that no matter how much he tries he'll still be the kid who threw a printer at a teacher in 2nd grade. Even if it's not technically true, Connor genuinely feels like nobody cares about him and nothing is worth the effort of trying to become better - after all, he was on the road to actually becoming better at one point in therapy and then his dad said it (and therefore Connor) wasn't worth the money.
This aspect of his personality is evident in his nails: they're always painted black in the show, which says he cares about his appearance enough to paint his nails, but the polish is always chipped - like he can't muster up the effort to keep them looking nice, even though he cared about it enough to paint them in the first place. That's kind of the summation of Connor, though: he's good when he's in a hypomanic episode but horrid when he's in a depressive one.
As he's spent more time on the island, Connor's started to open up more. He believes he has skills that are occasionally useful and he believes that he can make meaningful contributions to society but he just . . . never feels like it's good enough and maybe he's bringing everybody down, which results in him mostly keeping to himself.
SAILING
Connor is trained in the sailing of small watercraft, but he he's learned how to sail larger boats such as The Jackdaw.
FIRST AIDCertified in basic first aid. Learned how to do stitches from Shion in LifeAftr and can therefore deal with most minor things there.
BASKETRYInitially learned as a "fuck you" to his father, Connor is relatively skilled in basket weaving. He is unlikely to admit this if asked.
POTTERYCan throw pots, but is more skilled at sculpture. Doesn't know shit about glazes, though, so this skill is effectively useless on the island.
WEAVINGThough Connor only knows plainweave and has a basic grasp of how to make designs, he has a more useful skill: he knows how to build a frame loom.
BASIC HAND SEWINGRealistically, anything more complicated than repairing a rip is utterly beyond his skill but he can absolutely sew on missing buttons and do basic mending.
MACRAME/KNOTSIf it's a basic summer camp craft, Connor's probably made it. He also knows a variety of knots as well as how to lash in order to build structures.
RAPPELLINGHe has none of the correct equipment to do this, but Connor did learn how to rappel in Boy Scouts and remembers most of it.
(NAIL) ARTWhether he's painting his nails or cats on other people's houses, Connor is a pretty artistic person when he wants to be.
WOODWORKINGHe basically picked this up as a secondary hobby in LifeAftr. Mostly knows how to make simple furniture, but he already knew how to whittle so occasionally he carves weird trinkets.
so many people end up sucking dick for meth
APPAREL
- "School Shooter Chic": A dark grey t-shirt, sleeveless denim shirt, black skinny jeans, and a beat-up army surplus jacket. [x]
- "Generic Teenage Boy": A navy check button-down, white t-shirt, and another pair of black skinny jeans. You can never have too many black skinny jeans. [x]
- "Not Today Satan": A black tank bearing the phrase "nope not today satan" in all caps, paired with some distressed denim shorts with a button fly. [x]
- Novelty Tanks: After Umui, Connor donated a bunch of stories to the clothing fund under the condition that some of the clothing provided be shitty novelty tanks. He got his wish: idk google it, i'm dead wanna hook up, could be gayer, avant garde perfor—mance art, boat hair don't care, and first i need coffee.
- "Le Petit Prince": A niche joke that basically only appeals to Connor, he now owns a shirt that features the text of the book. Why? It's funny to him, at least.
- Combat Boots: What else would a misunderstood youth wear?
- Adventure Boots: Also salvaged from the giant clothing pile, Connor grabbed another pair of boots because his previous ones are maaaaybe getting a little worn out.
- Outerwear: Technically, there's not really any reason for Connor to own multiple sweaters and jackets given that he lives on a tropical island but he sure does. They include: black poncho, grey hoodie, this sweater, and the army surplus jacket mentioned above.
- Necklace: A gift from the Storyteller. It used to light up. Now it's just decorative, but Connor still wears it.
- Hairtie: It's rainbow, because the Storyteller has a sense of humor.
- Nail Polish: (1) bottle of Back Room, roughly half full. (1) bottle of Butler Please, new.
- Nail Kit: Self care is taking care of your nails in a lawless hellscape.
- Barber's Razor: See this one shine - how he smiles in the light!
- Bag: A beat-up army bag that can be converted into a backpack or a messenger bag. It's ostensibly to hold school supplies but realistically that's not what he keeps in there.
- Evan's Letter: A letter addressed to "Evan Hansen." It's the plot device letter.
- iPod: What respectable emo kid would be caught without one? It doesn't work, but Connor won't throw it away.
- iPhone: A useless brick, not that anyone ever called him even when he was alive.
- Books: The floating islands graciously provided Connor with six books. King Dork, Titus Groan, The Princess Bride, Inkheart, A Wrinkle in Time, and The Little Prince.
- School Stuff: (1) opened package of black ballpoint pens, (1) college-ruled notebook, (1) planner for the year 2015
- Cards Against Humanity: Don't ask why Connor owns this. In addition to the base game, The Storyteller was kind enough to include the 90's nostalgia pack, fantasy pack, geek pack, sci-fi pack, weed pack, and a mysterious set of cards Connor is pretty fucking sure the Storyteller made up themself.
- Knapsack: Helpfully embossed with his name. Unhelpfully another bag.
- Hammer: Good for when you need to hit the nail on the head.
- Multitool: Rusted, but still usable.
- Rope: 32ft/10m of climbing rope, made of manila.
- Hatchet(s): Why the fuck is Connor Murphy allowed to own three hatchets? I don't know, but he sure does own (3) hatchets and he sure does usually carry them on his person.
- Lighter: Only runs out of fuel every 6 months. [Last filled: March]
- Sewing Kit: For basic sewing repairs. He hates hand sewing, but beggars can't be choosers - also included an unpictured thimble.
- Twine: About 25ft or so of this, leftover from his project with
- Tarps: Connor owns three of these, for whatever reason.
- Paint: (1) half-full gallon of white paint, (1) gently used tube of both blue and black acrylic, (1) watercolor palette, (2) 1" paintbrushes.
- Growler: Used to contain wassail. Now mainly contains fresh water.
- Axe: A standard axe. The blade is slightly scratched, but it's otherwise fine.
- Lantern: Operates via hand crank.
- "The Jackdaw" : A fairly sizable boat stolen from Ai'tuoh by Ignis, which probably had a name that wasn't "Jackdaw" before Connor decided to rename it. It's kept in the cove of D8 when he's not using it.
- "Caravaggio": A kaleidoshell Connor befriended. It's his weird, shelled, sea dog now and it's named after an Italian Renaissance painter because what else would you name a turtle?
would they like what they saw? or would they hate it too?
VISUAL
HEIGHT: 6'00"
BUILD: Lanky
HAIR: Brown
EYES: Blue
AUDIO
SPEAKING: x
SINGING: x
ACCENT: American, East Coast/Philly
LANGUAGES: English, some Pennsylvania Dutch (German)
Rarely standing straight, Connor often appears smaller than he is but still somehow manages to give off a "don't fuck with me" vibe. Or maybe that's a "I haven't slept in two days" vibe? The line is pretty fine when it comes to Connor and it's often hard to tell whether the bored monotone he says everything in is because he's apathetic or because he's too tired to function.
His hair is nearly always pulled back into a messy bun and is often kind of greasy, given that he rarely washes it. It kind of goes along with the way the rest of his clothes have definitely seen better days, since he wore the same singular set of clothes he arrived in for six months straight in LifeAftr. His army surplus jacket in particular has seen better days: it's discolored in several spots after a bleach mishap - not to mention the fact that it's been mended in at least two places and the hem is fraying. In in LifeAftr, it also comes complete with bloodstains down the front.
Connor's one vanity is his nails. They're almost obsessively upkept - always trimed and never ragged, and while the paint often chips from daily wear? It's clear some effort has been put into keeping his nails looking nice, even if the rest of him doesn't.
LOOKBOOK
it’s easy to change if you give it your attention
✪ BACKTAGGING: I'm not always great about keeping track of what I'm doing. If I've left something hanging, just ping me on plurk or send me a discord dm and I'll hop right on it! Seriously, I probably just forgot.
✪ THREADHOPPING: I don't care unless something is explicitly marked as closed, most of the time. Still, you can ask me to make sure if you're worried.
✪ FOURTHWALLING: I don't . . . know why your character would? But sure, if your character would know of Dear Evan Hansen, you can fourthwall Connor. Tell him about the Connor Project and give him a screaming meltdown. (That is not a joke. Telling him the plot of Dear Evan Hansen will give him a screaming meltdown.)
✪ MAGICAL INFORMATION: Connor is, as I frequently say in tags, a normal-ass boy from normal-ass Pennsylvania. He doesn't have any defenses against magic or powers like telepathy but if you're going to read his mind, give me a heads up and I'll explain something Fun and Interesting about doing that.
✪ PHYSICAL AFFECTION: Connor doesn't . . . hate? Physical affection? But he's so unused to positive attention that it will probably be super awkward.
✪ PHYSICAL VIOLENCE: I'm fine with it, but Connor is incredibly squishy compared to a lot of characters and his general response to fights he can't win is to just die so, like. Just be aware of that? That is a legitimate tactic he uses.
✪ RELATIONSHIPS: Do you enjoy incredibly slow burning relationships? Then shipping with Connor is for you! I mean, first you have to get Connor to admit he's even friends with a character. Then you have to remember Connor is incredibly unwilling to state what he wants and very unused to the idea of positive attention in general. If you're interested, though, shoot me a message and we can hash shit out. In LifeAftr, though, he's . . . taken? Status unclear.
FROM YOU TO ME
Dear Evan Hansen is a musical about a lot of things, but chief among them is Connor's suicide. With that being said, please let me know by commenting below if you'd like to opt out of discussion/mention of any of the following: suicide, suicidal ideation, child neglect/abuse, panic attacks, and/or discussion of bipolarity. You can also just opt out of me tagging you entirely - I won't be offended, promise.
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