[ the thing about dirk is this: he senses when things are off, but he also had a sense for when the world was going to end. he knew, down to the second, when the meteors would fall, and he knew, down to the second, when he was going to die. it's the only time-related thing he was ever good at. but he still did everything he could. he's had a discussion with dave about the 'training' that dirk put blindly him through already, but they haven't touched on the events leading up to dirk's death.
maybe they never will.
that's that and this is this, though.
this is a discrepancy and it breaks through as soon as connor says what he has to say. a tension rises in his shoulders because all at once he remembers who connor is and where he's from instead of a nebulous 'of course i know that guy' vibe. he looks to connor, lips tipping into a one-pixel frown, but he doesn't say anything for a long moment.
when he does, his voice is quiet. ]
I hadn't even thought about having another birthday.
[ that's not all that's bothering him, of course: this is an intensely private dream, and the fact that connor is here to see it, that dirk confirmed it's what's supposed to be going on in that stage of his life, briefly makes bile rise in his throat.
he pushes it down, though. he doubts that connor will refrain from mentioning it later, but he's focusing on now. ]
cw more internalized homophobia it keeps happening
maybe they never will.
that's that and this is this, though.
this is a discrepancy and it breaks through as soon as connor says what he has to say. a tension rises in his shoulders because all at once he remembers who connor is and where he's from instead of a nebulous 'of course i know that guy' vibe. he looks to connor, lips tipping into a one-pixel frown, but he doesn't say anything for a long moment.
when he does, his voice is quiet. ]
I hadn't even thought about having another birthday.
[ that's not all that's bothering him, of course: this is an intensely private dream, and the fact that connor is here to see it, that dirk confirmed it's what's supposed to be going on in that stage of his life, briefly makes bile rise in his throat.
he pushes it down, though. he doubts that connor will refrain from mentioning it later, but he's focusing on now. ]