Base Song: Requiem (Solo Version), Dear Evan Hansen

Summary: You know what Connor didn't fucking want? To see his mother going through his shit. He also definitely did not want to see Evan being buddy-buddy with his dad. Like, seriously??? Fuck off????

Why should I say this isn't my home? Surrendering to a secondhand sorrow? Say I miss home and my family Oh, don't the tears just pour I could curl up and hide in my room There in my bed, still sobbing tomorrow I could give in to all of the gloom But tell me, tell me what for Why should I have a heavy heart? Why should I start to break in pieces? Why should I go and fall apart for them? Why should I play the grieving son and lie Saying that I miss them And that my world has gone dark without their light? I will sing no requiem Tonight I was a flood that swallowed you whole Sweeping you up in something untrue Hate built a fire out of control The blaze, it couldn't be tamed I cannot have have a heavy heart I cannot say I'll keep them with me I cannot go and fall apart for them I cannot play the grieving son and lie Saying that I miss them and that my world has gone dark without their light? I will sing no requiem Tonight 'cause if the villain falls, the kingdom never weeps No one lights a candle to remember No, no one mourned at all When they lay me down to sleep So, don't tell me that I didn't have it right Don't tell me that it wasn't black and white After all they put me through Don't say it wasn't true 'cause I am not the monster that they knew 'Cause I will not play the grieving son and lie Saying that I miss them And that my world has gone dark I will sing no requiem I will sing no requiem Tonight Oh, oh