Base Song: If I Could Tell Him, Dear Evan Hansen

Summary: And then Shion kissed him and now they literally can't communicate until their respective death penalties go away and Connor is slowly dying? He wants to die. And also for his own personal best buddy Evan to just shut up.

(Why are you looking at him like that?) He kissed me. (Seriously? What do you even see in him?) Well, I think There's nothing like his smile Sort of subtle and perfect and real I think I never knew how wonderful a smile could make someone feel And I know Whenever he learns more He scribbles notes down, he knows everything And he noticed That I have my own interests And I hide them so it doesn't sting But I keep it all inside my head What I see I leave unsaid And though I wanted to I couldn't talk to you I couldn't find the way The proper things to say If I could tell him Tell him everything I see If I could tell him How he's everything to me But we're a million worlds apart And I don't know how I would even start If I could tell him If I could tell him (What would you even say to him?) Um, well. I think You look really pretty, er, uh It looks pretty cool the way your eyes bring out, um, your hair And I wonder if you'd like to dance Like all the rest of the world isn't there But I keep it all inside my head What I see I leave unsaid If I could tell him Tell him everything I see If I could tell him How he's everything to me But we're a million worlds apart And I don't know how I would even start If I could tell him If I could tell him But what do you do when there's this great divide? (He just seems so not your type) And what do you do when the distance is too wide? (It's like you don't know anything) And how do you say I love you I love you I love you I love you But we're a million worlds apart And I don't know how I would even start If I could tell you If I could -