Base Song: Figure Me Out, It's Kind Of A Funny Story (Gasparini)

Summary: Connor's figured out that . . . maybe? He can't be a shitty hermit? And it's probably shitty that he has (1) person he's comfortable calling a friend? So he needs to figure himself out.

I try to live, but it isn't coming easy 'Cause I don't know how The light within, darkened, screaming in the chaos But it can't go out I weave in circles like a broken record Every row's identical I can't escape, like I'm afflicted by the current Life is constant parentheticals Don't just drown, this place is something permanent Life might whisper, death likes to shout Don't sink now Your raft is gonna take you to What might be on the other side I wanna figure me out Everyday never focusing my feelings Always lashing out In every way, I avoid the island frontline And assuming crowds Even trees, how they stand there, strong with purpose Telling me I need to grow I just see the roots all twisted, strange and tangled And that's the only me I know I just drown and focus on forbiddens All my roots grow wildly deep underground Just cut down a tree before it lives to see What might be in the sunny sky I wanna figure me out I guess I wanna take a minute I wanna pause a thought And zoom in on the frame I'm just putting nothing in it Until the thought is gone My frame of mind's the same It's like I owe it to myself To go receive a new branding And just take a firm stand, so I climb back down into the mess And I'm scared to death This is an SOS I try to live, but it isn't very easy When you don't know how You can't go 'till you know Don't just drown, this place is something permanent Life might whisper, death likes to shout Don't sink now Your raft is gonna take you to What might be on the other side I just drown and focus on forbiddens All my roots grow wildly deep underground Just cut down a tree before it lives to see What might be in the sunny sky I wanna figure me out I try to live, but it isn't very easy 'cause I don't know how